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when your gf (who's also a therapist) diagnoses your ass after you break up with her for no good reason.  hey at least she was right 

thanks Fizz, she shoulda known better

ima miss  the smell of her stinky feet 

say no to girls who wear socks maaan 

When the 1,5 year old child of a friend dies.

Rarely have I joined in here, if anything I've used this thread for perspective, I have lots of things to be thankful for, I really do and everything that will follow is my fault.

I've been making a living from music for almost 7 years now, it wasn't much of a living, but I got by. The last year I was in Berlin not only did I see the money from shows get more and more sparse, but in certain places go down. Now, I still think it's a lot to ask for a living from music, and I truly count myself lucky that I managed to do it for so long. But in November I found myself with nothing, absolutely nothing. Facebook gives a false impression to the world, people remark at how well I seem to be doing. My pride stops me from correcting them. Foolish thing pride.

So now I'm 32, I've been told I've been "out of the workplace" for so long that it's hard for me to find a normal job, I'm living back with my parents in Bristol.

I owe money all over the place, bills, missing rent, money i thought would be coming from somewhere. When I got back to Bristol I applied for a teaching job, to my face they said they would like to hire me, but then nothing but silence. Other places have told me I'm over qualified because I have a degree.

Two of the 4 concerts I had in the UK this month have been cancelled. I've no agent, there are no cancellation fees. Now I'm not complaining about that so much because there are people who never get booked at all! I am lucky to have been able to operate for so long on almost nothing. But now it is impossible to budget anything to pay my debts.

So, one option is to become a drug dealer, as I don't really like drugs and wouldn't destroy my own stash. Which even as I type it sounds silly.

I don't write this to say "please buy my records" or anything like that. I'd just like to be sent a whole lot of positive energy so that I can get out of this hell. And even then, it's a hell of being kept awake at night and having an ominous feeling hanging over me all day. People have much worse. The selfish part of me thinks that I've worked very very hard for a long time to quit now, but this promise being round the corner STILL hasn't come, and my patience and fears are catching up with me.

It's fear man... Pure fear.

Thanks.
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Best of luck Maiovvi, know you are lucky to have your family. I know personally that I would be nothing without the support of my family.

Take it day by day if you can and grind towards peace of mind. I'll be rooting for you sir.

Light drugs will be legalized in 10-20 years so don't put your whole career into selling dope

I probably sound like a wanker saying this, but even if you have a job with an average salary, the world is not so great still. Mortgages, price of electricity, food, etc wil make sure you will see a very small % of your salary after all the bills have been paid. Life for the middle classes has been getting shittier for the past 30 years and sadly only the guys who make it to the top will get to enjoy the rewards.

Hey I think this "other people are much worse off"-thought is always a dead end - and it's fair to think that you're not getting what you deserve, when you're working hard for it. Others are not doing so and getting it shoved up their ass, so why not be annoyed.

For the rest I'm pretty interested seeing all this posts here coming up and seeing all my friends with the same existential concern, and you know what my conclusion is: being in a super rich culture, with all sorts of priviliges, more or less "clean" political system, and officialy anounced "good life quality" doesn't mean shit, and won't help in giving you the feeling of having a fullfilled live where you get what you deserve - mentally or materially, and no matter if you're in the middle, the top or on the bottom (I know people from all shifts with the same complaint).

Anyway let's not start to get to much into doom-thinking: I'm very convinced that there's other things out there than jobs and money that can give you a role in life, and finding those is probably one of the things we need to start elaborating on in our culture.

ceb was rocking his proudest boner that day 

If I were you I would move to Belgium, a pretty complex country but at least you'll enjoy the absurd kind of our country.

I'm not professional music producer, I don't live from music but music and synths are my passion and I know how hard is reconcile work and music production. After 8h of work and nearly 1h of drive to home (traffic jams) I'm just to tired to do something creative or just play synth for fun. It makes my so fucking angry. I work for money to live and of course to spend it on my passion (buy new machines) but paradoxically I don't have time and energy for it 
In my opinion every "art" occupation no matter if you are musican, writer or you like painting requires more for you and 5 days of work in the week takes your energy but in the other hand - no work means no money for you, your bills, food and... passion.
It is fucking shame that we can't do what we really want in this short life...
Don't give up Maiovvi!