Fossa wrote:Henri Puolitaival wrote:I'm having a crush and it feels great. The tricky part is that I don't know for how long - I'm scared of letting myself to fall in love because I'll end up crying. Now please let me have this...
Go for it, Henri! Don't fear it, man. Be careful, but try not to fear letting go. Don't let the shit of the past ruin your chaces for something good. Not trying is worse than getting hurt.
Just waiting for my next chance.
I think I've found more in common with her within a week than what I did or had in common with my ex during all those years. Of course this still hasn't cleared my head out a bit - I still live in a haze but this is a pleasant kind of haze and the best thing of all, it has pushed the thoughts about my ex somewhere to the background. I hope they would stay there and slowly fade away for good. This sweetie lives two hours away and is far younger than me (illegally young, so to speak) but there's something going on that makes me think that it's just not a naïve summer romance.
Fossa wrote:Saw my ex yesterday on a club again and i've been depressed all day again. I'm starting to feel i don't have anyone to really talk about this again. Everyone kinda assumes i'm over it allready. I wish i were.
Fuck.
It just isn't so easy - all I needed (or actually need) is to see that my ex is online somewhere and her plain existence can ruin the day. Not to mention that I have to fear all the time that I will bump into her on the street. At this point it's good that we don't know the same people or go to the same places as out of sight is out of mind (for most of the time.) The nasty fucker in me just wants to shout right up to her face that see, I'm finally talking to someone else and I'm feeling happy after all that shit you put me through.
You will have to find your way to deal with it. It's difficult to say what one should do, because what works for someone won't necessarily work for someone else.
You were just a damn sequencer
Moving to the beat
Living with a synthesizer
Cold as a repeat