This is probably gonna sound like a naive teenager problem.
Some of you might remember how i posted this in the "tell us why you're happy" -thread:
I know people are posting here awesome stuff, like getting married and stuff.
But robots, dudes, this robette is the awesomest girl i've ever met!
I'd never say this so soon in finnish, especially to her, but fuck! i think im in love, of some kind at least.
And so it was. Best time of my life. I've never ever met anyone like her and never meen more happy in my hole fucking life. And the best thing was that she shared all these feelings.
Last Tuesday she broke up with me.
There was no way i could have seen this. I did everything right. She was all along totally in love with me and it was like a fairytale. She broke up with me without any reason fucking reason that i could blame.
Apparently she has this thing, which she has had with all her previous relationships. She falls deeply in love with someone at first but when the first rush starts to come down, nothing is the same anymore and everything after that feels like nothing to her.
She suffers from depression, which was very ok by me. It didn't cause any problems and i was very willing to be there with her at her bad times. But FUCK i wish she would have warned me about this too She apparently thought that this time it would be different and this would be for real.
But the worst thing here is, that the 4 months we were together, was very enough for me to fall VERY VERY VERY deeply in love with her. I mean despite all her problems SHE WAS THE ONE. I mean she had everything. I had everything. I was ready to throw all of my fucking life to the side because of her. She was so so so so so fucking perfect for me
I've never EVER felt so bad in my life. Not just sad, i'm nearing panic attacks and feeling sick. I cried in my moms lap yesterday for the first time in probably over 17 years. I can't even LISTEN TO MUSIC which is my freakin' life, because i've listened all the good songs with her or thinking about her so music makes me feel bad right now.
I miss her like hell. I feel that i'd need a lap to hug or someone to crumple down under a blanket but fuck, the only one i've ever in my life had the chance to do that for real is gone from my life.
Actually the worst thing here is, that because she was so perfect, i'm afraid i'll ever gonna meet anyone to match that level
How does anyone ever top that beautiful, smart, sexy, stylish and cool girl?
I'm fucking 27 in a few weeks and running out of time. I really thought this was the one to get the fucking kids and move to a big house.
Thank you life! Fuck this shit
http://fossa.bandcamp.comShitting in a lavatory, conducting experiments.
Farticles come near and disappear.