Fossa wrote:Broken heart is the toughest shit ever.
I mean, a childhood friend of mine died a drug-related death a couple of years ago.
Seriously broken heart is worse than that. I don't know why but it is.
I can't imagine how it feels to break up from a long-time marriage but i can relate to how you feel huxflux.
Thanks to you again Ray. It was the best time of my life. Never been happier in my hole life. And i hope i can cherish it someday and feel good about it.
It just sucks that a big part of that bliss and happiness was connected to all those expectations of the future and the feel that this is the one i'm going to settle with.
It feels so unbelieveably bad to try to change that track back to being that single and starting that female-hunting again.
There are a lot of fucking spiky bushes between the single-road and the relationship-road.
well we are trying again, i think this is what 3-4:th time in a year. Last time i were sure it was final, but it seems its harder to break up after we have decided to move on. We have had problems quite some time and I've only recently forced her to talk about them and be honest but she got a problem with doing those things which makes us slip apart.
I've finally managed to make her to talk about the core problem in our 8 year relationship which we both have been aware of but its been hidden behind the curtains.
I can't accept those problems and she will need to make an effort if this gonna work and I am ready to invest time in therapy with her but I am also very aware that we might not be able to solve them.
In a strange way I am ready for both. I am ready to nurture our love but I am also ready for a longer period of sorrow and a light in the end of that tunnel. Both are better than a dysfunctional relationship.
Fossa: I am so sorry to hear about your break up. I can relate to the feeling of a bubble until it bursts. Its devastating when it suddenly arrises from no where. From my personal perspective I don't think it has made me a better man to be more aware since it creates suspiciousness which shouldn't be needed in something most of us wish for, a trusty relationship.
Sometimes its of course hard for the other person to reveal their inner feelings and it takes a great deal of time to understand the other person in deep which makes me assume that she were aware of your feelings and your commitment but she didn't feel ready. Her personal problems combined with hurting someone in the long run made her make a fast decision.
I might be projecting here, but I am just trying to say that it might have saved you a great deal of trouble even if it feels hard now.
Hugs to you and Maiovvi. Take care of yourselves.