I've been planning to write here many times, but i just haven't felt i have a lot to say. Even tough all this shit is going through my mind constantly.
I really don't know if i'm the lucky one to have lost this love so cleanly and sharply, and can almost entirely to set all the past aside if i just want to, as all of it just can not go on in any case or format. And therefore not torture myself with a slow breakup with sparkles of hope, that eventually never lead to anything. (A shitty situation where i've been in the past)
Or, am i the unlucky one, unlike you guys, eho clearly have still some chance with your loved ones.
I'd say that put all your effort into making it all right again, but i've been contemplating a lot about why is the hunt for a perfect mate so extremely important to me, and should it really be. It has started to annoy me that i cannot enjoy any of my other hobbies or intrests as much as i'd want to, as the loneliness after the recent relationship eats me from inside.
WHY is it so goddamn important to be with someone that i cannot feel happy without it even tough if i'd excel at every other aspect of my life? Fuck.
Argh.
And heifetz, i can relate to that shit too. Tuli iso jytky perkule 
For the record, i'm a bit drunk now (after a great synth jam session tough).
And maybe we should start a thread for heartbroken robots. Or is it cpu for robots..
http://fossa.bandcamp.comShitting in a lavatory, conducting experiments.
Farticles come near and disappear.