• Registered: 2008-12-16
  • Posts: 62

Topic: girl problems

so last night this girl (39 yrs 7/10) that i used to get high with and be sexual with shows up at my door out of the blue  I cut her off for personal reasons.  she shows up at my house at 11pm, with stimulants and booze, lets me molest her, gets high, watches porn, dances to nu shooz i can't wait, wearing hot black/grey leapord print pants, tells me she wants to move in (has the money), cook, clean, do laundry and stuff...


standards
only date women 20-30 yrs old, no kids. she must be educated (my level or higher), clean, and has a job

I comprimised my standards last night.  Fuck, yo.  Now I have to assert my boundaries, say "no you can't move in."  be prepared for making her cry and tell her to leave me alone.  plus i am not over my x.  it is true.  am i destined for a life alone, fucking prostitutes.... what the fuck?  this is my life.  really.  this sucks.

also i beleive "love" is a conditioned behavior.  but i don't want it to be.  i want it to be that romantic stuff, you know.  also i want to shed my bondage (carnal pleasures)...  i am addicted to sex, drugs, and rock and roll.

anyone dealing with these oppourtunities and challenges (i.e. problems)?  like fresh prince said the girls of this world ain't nothing but trouble

i guess i should make a mix-tape (therapy), right?

  • Registered: 2008-12-16
  • Posts: 62

Re: girl problems

i am going to write a gerald donald-y song yo.  she would of looked so good in the video... fuck!

3 Reply by Prince of Pizza

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Re: girl problems

feeling 'in love' is definitely a nice feeling.  i say keep searching for that, but not in your ex.  thats old news.  im pretty old(er) and i still find love occasionally.  like right now.  i feel like im floating in my mother's ambiotic fluid wink

  • Registered: 2010-08-12
  • Posts: 55

Re: girl problems

yes man, i dealt with exactly those problems recently. for a long time i had no problem with my addictions - they didn't depress me or fuck my life up in any way that i could tell at the time because i was so busy being high and partying and fucking....then finally it all caught up with me, the emptiness of my activities started to weigh on me tons...and in my experience, once you start second-guessing then it's time to let go. so i quit everything ( except booze  wink  ), even quit smoking cigarettes...replaced all that with a road bike that i ride every day all through the mountains and cities, i'm reading again, camping a lot, etc...generally just exercising and working on my own shit...

anyhow, about the sexual thing - all this biking and not doing drugs just intensified my lust even more. i'm feeling so good and clear physically and mentally that my sexuality feels fresh to me again and "love" feels possible. don't get down on yourself about the future ("am i destined to blah blah...") because that's all pointless speculation and when you do that you just spiral yourself and it becomes even harder to see a way out (that's also the trap of feeling like you're not over an ex). you have to move on! don't be a person that dwells and remembers. remembering is for suckers. it makes people bitter and sad. if you don't like how things are going then draw a fuckin line in the sand and do things radically different than you have in the past and i'm sure you'll be happier for it. the only trick with it is that you have to stick to something, it won't work out if you try once or twice then fall back on the same routine.... anyway, good luck and don't get with that chick....she sounds like a lot of fun and anyone who's that much fun is bound to have a lot of issues too...

  • Registered: 2008-12-16
  • Posts: 62

Re: girl problems

Thanks for the reply guys.  It means alot to me.  Legowelt was supposed to rock it last night at a club (Toronto) but the date got changed.... Kinda disappointed bu still hopeful...

Anyways fucking chick shows up at my door at 4am last night.  she's knocking, calling my name, ringing my doorbell.  I didn't answer the door.   I was kinda freaked out, pissed off and stuff.  The last time she came over she forgot an extra pair of shoes.  This morning I put them outside the house with a note:  "please leave me alone.  Don't call on me anymore.  I am choosing a new way of life.  Never come back.  thx."

I am kinda worried about her reaction.   what if she breaks a window or something.  if she comes back i am going to be firm and tell her to leave and not look back. 

Man my past keeps haunting me.  totallyouted you're right remembering is for suckers.   I totally need to re-calibrate my memory function. 

I will keep you posted.

  • Registered: 2008-12-16
  • Posts: 62

Re: girl problems

guys, wait till you hear this....

So she had a pair of flip flops she left at my house from before.  i put them outside the house on the porch with a note... "do not call me anymore.  never come back...."   anyways my window was open, front door unlocked when i got home at 12:30am.  the note was left on kitchen bar, and petty cash was gone.  the bitch broke into my house!!!  do you guys know that track from "tres demented - she's crazy...."   i am fucking living that shit yo.  no fucking joke... i called the cops, filled a report.  i'm going to follow up again with the cops today.  i don't want sleep with a  bat and be singing that ghetto house track "beat that bitch with a bat," and then actually beat her, and go to jail and shit....

i am so stressed, but i'm still gonna jack and rave my face off (leverage the adrenlin) to legowelt tonight.   

this is my life.  seriously.  i don't know what to make of it.  i need to get the native instruments maschine (on the cheap) and therapy this shit out.  breathe.